mem

penat aku cari
rupenye kau dah ade mem

so kau boleh pergi ke mem kau
and pergi mem-pus.

...

kosong
dalam otak
dalam hati
dalam jiwa

bila
kau
ambil
kembali
kebahagiaan
yang
kau
janjikan
dulu.

apology

many apologies for the mood swing lately
trying to feel better
but it fails all the time
selagi aku masih tak tahu
perkara sebenar
selagi aku masih tak dapat
lepaskan
aku akan macam ni
mohon jangan buat bom jangka ni meletop
walaupun bunyinya
agak selfish
tp tolonglah paham
aku bukan yg dulu

morning

i woke up in the morning 

just to realise that it was not a dream

that you had taken a part of me 

away

no apologies could mend this

no explanations could ever help

sometimes coincidence just hits it hard right in your face

"Almost Lover"

Your fingertips across my skin

The palm trees swaying in the wind

Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies

The sweetest sadness in your eyes

Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street

You took my hand and danced with me

Images

And when you left you kissed my lips

You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean

I cannot drive the streets at night

I cannot wake up in the morning

Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted

And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that easy

To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

such a coincidence

the only difference is that 

you are not my almost lover

you are my lover.

3 bulan

3 bulan yang lalu
kau dapat berita yang boleh ubah hidup kita
3 bulan yang lalu
kau terima nasib itu dengan senang hati
tanpa ada gerak hati
untuk beri tahu aku

3 bulan yang lalu
aku masih fikir kau sayang aku
3 bulan yang lalu
kita bersenda gurau macam biasa
3 bulan lalu
kau ucap kata cinta
macam tiada apa yang dapat halang
bila adanya kita berdua

3 bulan yang lalu
dalam diam
kau musnahkan hidup aku

3 BULAN

presence

every touch
every kiss
stay sealed in this safety box
a safety box that only you can open

but somehow
day by day
sometimes you forgot to come by
to visit my safe box
to make sure that it is alright
like the way you used to

maybe you no longer need my presence to feel happy
maybe you realised that this was all a big mistake
a misguided feeling
that should never grow at all

all the promises
the hopes
the plans
can no longer fill this empty heart
because i know that you never intended to fulfill it

or... maybe you did?